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Whoa. They changed the online-updating-thing. Craaazy. Whatever. Except that it has all of my userpics confused with each other.


Yeah. Today is... strange. I feel like shit but I was being obnoxious and hyper all day, so go figure. But this morning during my shower I got dizzy and almost passed out, like, three times, so I think I'm getting sick or something... usually for me random dizziness is a sign of upcoming sinus-related getting-sick shit.


Tech was special. BUNNY! Except that I wanted to kill Eric... again. And there was too many people and not enough stuff to do, so me and Dee and Anna wound up sitting in the loft instead of just standing pointlessly... which apparently pissed Tim off, but whatever. We came down when there was stuff to do, so bleh.


I have no homework, so I'm actively considering just having dinner then taking a bunch of Benadryl (since I'm somewhat immune to it) and passing out for the evening. Maybe getting more than 5 hours of sleep would do me good.


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nice how college talk MAKES ME WANT TO FUCKING DIE.


I've been in tears for the last hour and a half.


my father does not seem to comprehend that everything he says just upsets me further.


whatever. I think I'll just go sleep or something. blaah.

the college thing...

... I just... I don't know what to do... or what I want... anything... goddamnit...