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FUCK.


Overslept. I haven't done that... well, ever. Not to this extent. Woke up, took shower, fell back asleep, woke up at 7:25 and had a panic attack. My hair had dried all freaky-like and so that removed any possibility of me being able to get ready in 15 minutes... so I just kind of lost it. my mother called me in sick for the first few hours but I think I'm going in now because I feel so DAMN guilty.


blaaaah....

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Bad day. BAAAAAAAD day. And being at home isn't exactly so good, but I do have that essay to work on/finish and it's not like I have anyone to hang out with because Ali is busy and everyone else has seemingly morphed into a big pool of seething angst so that makes things vaguely special.


Meh.

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FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.


Oh god. I fucked up. Majorly. Application for Kalamazoo needs to be in... tomorrow? Yeah, the counselor stuff definitely WON'T be.


Which means no scholarships.


Which means no Kalamazoo College possibility AT all.


fuck... I need to die...


EDIT:// ....Oh.


"Honor Scholarships
All students accepted to Kalamazoo are considered for Honor Scholarships. Your application for admission acts as your Honor Scholarship application. Applications submitted by February 15th will receive priority consideration for Honor Scholarships. Awards range between $3,000 and $13,000 annually.
Competitive Scholarships
These scholarships give students an opportunity to earn recognition for their achievements in specific fields of study. Awards range between $2,000 and $3,000 annually. Students are eligible to register for one written exam and one fine arts exam. To register for these scholarships you must have applied to the college by January 15th, 2005. Only first-year students are considered for Competitive Scholarships."


I thought the deadline at least for the Competitive one was... tomorrow.


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It's a very odd feeling to suddenly realize you've spent the last two hours having a nervous breakdown for, apparently, no reason at all.