"when you're out of bed and/feeling better/feeling better/and the scars fall aside..."

odd odd semi-bad odd odd mood. something about walking home alone at night in the snow. mind you i like walking alone, and i like snow, and it's peaceful, but in a strange sad way for some reason. not sure. no reason to be in a bad mood at all, no reason to be lonely because things are fine I swear... i don't know, my mind confuses me sometimes.

tomorrow is going to be ridiculous. the next week is going to be ridiculous, really.
(honestly who am i kidding, LIFE is ridiculous.)



when you're up again and
feeling better feeling better
cool and empty inside

"breathing when all i wanna do is drown/you keep on breathing i keep on sinking down"

oh god do i need to work on my study abroad app. so so so badly.

and yet i'm not.


doesn't matter.

(life is eating at me.)


you wanna lift me up
but you don't know and you don't see
i'm stuck in my ways
stuck in my ways