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so i really don't know if i can cope with being the worst student in BOTH of my classes. particularly in figure drawing, where i am seriously about 573482905423523 miles behind everyone. i know to a large extent it's because i'm very out of practice, and that things will start looking up for me if/when i start drawing enough again -- but that doesn't make it feel any less terrible for the time being.

i need to start getting shop hours soon so at least i can feel like less of a failure about SOMETHING in my life.

fuck fuck fuck.