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Feb. 12th, 2006 08:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
numberoneblindamazingly enough.... definitely a legitimately good day. it was just strike but for the first time since coming to K and getting involved in theater I actually felt competent, like I wasn't making an ass of myself, like I was getting shit done. first time. and it felt fucking amazing. I may have forgotten an inordinately large amount of my lighting knowledge but apparently I still wield a mean drill driver. and it feels good to just be able to throw myself into something headfirst and get it done and not have the sneaking feeling that I'm doing it wrong. so yeah. I like today.
mind you today is still thoroughly not over, Kaleidoscope (the school's GSA) is doing a stage reading of Laramie Project next Friday and, I mean, it's Laramie Project, and I loooove doing stage readings (because I can't memorize things worth shit, but if it's in front of me I can read it and emote it and do a good job of it) and so of course I'm doing that, but the whole thing has been insane to organise and today is finally the day of "look, come to the fucking rehearsal or someone else will be reading your parts". (is it bad that I have a secret sinister hope that some people WON'T show and I'll get to steal their parts? heh.) and of course I still have reading left to do for both tomorrow's classes, because I'm a lazy lazy bitch, but ah well.
in general, this weekend has been very good. for the first time in a while things are normalising, and I'm feeling a little better about life in general. I don't know. the other day I sat down and thought about it and I can pretty honestly say that in the last two months more random shit has changed in my life than has done so in the last... I don't know, 2-3 years. and it's been a lot to think about. but things seem to be leveling out and I'm readjusting and yeah. probably this trend will reverse itself shortly and I will revert to being dumb and emo, but for now... I'll enjoy it. it'd be pretty fucking dumb of me not to.
mind you today is still thoroughly not over, Kaleidoscope (the school's GSA) is doing a stage reading of Laramie Project next Friday and, I mean, it's Laramie Project, and I loooove doing stage readings (because I can't memorize things worth shit, but if it's in front of me I can read it and emote it and do a good job of it) and so of course I'm doing that, but the whole thing has been insane to organise and today is finally the day of "look, come to the fucking rehearsal or someone else will be reading your parts". (is it bad that I have a secret sinister hope that some people WON'T show and I'll get to steal their parts? heh.) and of course I still have reading left to do for both tomorrow's classes, because I'm a lazy lazy bitch, but ah well.
in general, this weekend has been very good. for the first time in a while things are normalising, and I'm feeling a little better about life in general. I don't know. the other day I sat down and thought about it and I can pretty honestly say that in the last two months more random shit has changed in my life than has done so in the last... I don't know, 2-3 years. and it's been a lot to think about. but things seem to be leveling out and I'm readjusting and yeah. probably this trend will reverse itself shortly and I will revert to being dumb and emo, but for now... I'll enjoy it. it'd be pretty fucking dumb of me not to.
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