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[numberoneblind]

don't want to talk about it, but not as bad as it could've been, barring the breakdown when they first gave me the stupid gown thing. it helped when a female nurse came, having some old guy just increased my freak-out level tenfold. i also had a panic attack after they put the stuff to knock me out in but before it actually worked because i was rolling and people were loud and it was creeping me out.

i should sleep, but as i slept all day, not happening.