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[numberoneblind]

I'm sick of this fucking rollercoaster. For the last three days my moods have hurtled back and forth between "okay," "eh," "shitty," and "suicidal," even managing a brief stint of "happy" last night. Today has just gone downhill, it was fine before and now I feel like SHIT again. And I'm sick of dealing with this. The fact that my mood HAS been good at times recently just makes it worse, because it just serves as a disgusting contrast when I inevitably get depressed again. It would just fucking be easier to be kind of depressed ALL the time, at least then there's not all this goddamn shifting to deal with. I'm tired of it.

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Rar.

[(Anonymous)]

Well, yeah, that's one way to look at it, but I have to disagree. I think it's good that you can even manage "happy" once in a while. Everything depresses me, and it's really not easier being depressed all the time. So long as you still have your happy moments, there's plenty of hope. If you lose even those small moments, well, then you have something to worry about. This period of life seems like crap to me... but it's almost over. Almost done with high school.
Actually, I don't know what I'm talking about. None of this seems too relevent to the post. Just wanted to respond to this.. I'm having too much trouble making sense, so blar.