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Jun. 20th, 2007
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Jun. 20th, 2007 09:41 pmjesus christ. today has lasted for about 5 days. waking up at 6:30 AM, running errands, going to a temp agency and taking 8 tests, and attacking the vicious creature that is my room at present was a lot more than I was prepared to accomplish while in the throes of what was pretty much my first hangover ever. not a terrible one, but I'm not used to it.
also of note: because my mother decided my misery would be better condensed into two weeks instead of spread out all summer, she spent all morning calling Kalamazoo oral surgeons to find one who could get me in sooner than the August date scheduled by the oral surgeon here. so my wisdom teeth are now coming out on Monday. yes, THIS Monday. they intend to stick me with an IV full of valium and demerol, which would be fine, except that the very idea of an IV is something that makes my skin crawl and makes me sick to my stomach. i kind of have needle issues in general, but i can force myself past it fine if it's not on my inner forearm, and if I have a couple of minutes to collect myself I can deal with it there -- but only by telling myself it's coming out, which this one isn't. i am not afraid of the actual getting-wisdom-teeth-out. i am afraid of the 10 minutes leading up to it. just TYPING about an IV puts me on the verge of a panic attack, and i don't know how i'll be able to handle actually getting one. i convinced my mother to take that day off instead of the next because while my father is perfectly capable of bringing me liquids and watching me sleep on the couch, the extent to which he would berate and belittle me for freaking out about the IV as I inevitably will is pretty much unimaginable.
oh, and then Friday they slice my toe open.
next week is officially the worst week ever.
EDIT:// or not. kind of. we decided to NOT do the wisdom teeth monday. i can't deal with it emotionally or mentally, not out of the blue, and then there's the physical element of feeling like shit for an entire week with the toe thing being right after. and the financial element of us not having dental coverage and that being a lot of money very suddenly.
still, everything... draining. i should sleep.
also of note: because my mother decided my misery would be better condensed into two weeks instead of spread out all summer, she spent all morning calling Kalamazoo oral surgeons to find one who could get me in sooner than the August date scheduled by the oral surgeon here. so my wisdom teeth are now coming out on Monday. yes, THIS Monday. they intend to stick me with an IV full of valium and demerol, which would be fine, except that the very idea of an IV is something that makes my skin crawl and makes me sick to my stomach. i kind of have needle issues in general, but i can force myself past it fine if it's not on my inner forearm, and if I have a couple of minutes to collect myself I can deal with it there -- but only by telling myself it's coming out, which this one isn't. i am not afraid of the actual getting-wisdom-teeth-out. i am afraid of the 10 minutes leading up to it. just TYPING about an IV puts me on the verge of a panic attack, and i don't know how i'll be able to handle actually getting one. i convinced my mother to take that day off instead of the next because while my father is perfectly capable of bringing me liquids and watching me sleep on the couch, the extent to which he would berate and belittle me for freaking out about the IV as I inevitably will is pretty much unimaginable.
oh, and then Friday they slice my toe open.
next week is officially the worst week ever.
EDIT:// or not. kind of. we decided to NOT do the wisdom teeth monday. i can't deal with it emotionally or mentally, not out of the blue, and then there's the physical element of feeling like shit for an entire week with the toe thing being right after. and the financial element of us not having dental coverage and that being a lot of money very suddenly.
still, everything... draining. i should sleep.
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