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[numberoneblind]

having bree come was good and bad. good because it was a blast.... and bad for the same reason. because it made me realise what I -don't- have here. getting coffee together, hanging out during the talkback, ordering Middle Eastern takeout and sitting in my living room until 1:30 AM watching Mystery Science Theater -- it was what I had wanted college to be, what it was supposed to be and could've been and isn't. friendship. the kind of friendship where you can just sit around and be lame and it's okay. and having that even for one evening here made the lack of it the rest of the time more acutely present than ever. and then of course there was strike today, where afterwards everyone sat around in their little groups and I sat in my little corner and... ugh.

and I'm just tired of not fucking belonging.

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[fiordelisa.livejournal.com]

You always have a place over here in the Hoben. Sorry we're always busy :-(

[numberoneblind.livejournal.com]

I know... I'm just bad at randomly coming over, I feel awkward and bothersome.