this message brought to you by 4 AM and a minor nervous breakdown

[numberoneblind]

they picked a poster and

it wasn't mine.

but i think the one they did pick
is kinda shitty

so whatever.

and i have a research paper due in 12 hours

haven't started

and my lighting thing due in
5 hours
and an hour of work to go

and it is terrible.

no concept
shitty plot
et cetera
only thing going for me
is decent drafting
but everyone's has that.

and i think that most likely

i failed
or will fail

every

single

one

of my final exams.
and i don't mean Kelsey-fail, I mean REALLY
REALLY
fail.


i am too dumb to be here.
i am too socially inept to be here.
i do not belong in college.

i am 2/3 through my first year and i am about to go from
dean's list
to
probably
academic probation.

and i still eat every meal alone every day
because i have no one to hang out with.
and i still sit in my room alone all weekend
because i have no one to hang out with.

and all i want to do right now
is curl into a little ball

and just fucking sleep

forever

but instead
i get to finish failing my finals now.

Comments

[celtic--punk.livejournal.com]

i completely feel you.... i had a 3.8 in high school and then get here and am struggling to get a 2.8. i dont really have any friends either and dont feel worthy of being here. if you ever want to talk my screename is RiStA2711. im usually on and im a pretty good listner. feel better!