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[numberoneblind]

so I kind of feel like a big lameass, but I am not going to the beach for DOGL. for several reasons.

A. I hate buses full of people, but I don't want to drive because I'm driving home tomorrow and that's just a lot of driving back and forth in a homewards direction. And I can't go home tonight because I need to go to the play.

B. May I reiterate? I hate buses full of loud people.

C. My friends only want to stay for a half-hour, which is not enough time to be worth an hour and a half of stupid fucking bus.

D. Honestly, the beach is not that exciting to me.

E. I have a book and knitting and am perfectly content with being here.

F. It's probably warmer here anyway.

i still feel dumb, now, though. like, ridiculously so. i'm doing what i want to do, what i'm comfortable with, what i'm in the mood for, but i'm getting more and more depressed because i feel like people are thinking i'm lame or boring or an asshole or avoiding them for it. i just sometimes am in the mood to take a day off and do nothing and NOT be fucked up, and just relax, but now i can't even do that because i'm so upset about what other people are probably thinking of it. mehhhhh.

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[smilinzombie.livejournal.com]

Sorry I didn't get back to you -- DOGL was spent with Paul Clegg and Dayna, wherein we did indeed go to the beach, though also watched Aeon Flux and ate way too much pizza.

Just lemme know about those markers, sweets.

[numberoneblind.livejournal.com]

C'est cool. All plans wound up changing after I posted this, so Alyssa and Holly stayed home we wound up enjoying some illicit substances and laying around watching "40 Least-Metal Moments" on VH1, haha.

I'll probably get back to you about the markers next week -- am heading out of town shortly.

[r-macduff.livejournal.com]

That makes two of us "lame" people, since I can't swim, I didn't bring a swimsuit, and I feel hideously self-conscious in one anyway. Also, if I had to go I'd rather bring a pointy black beach umbrella and look menacingly Addams Family-ish, and then people would make fun of me. So instead I spent my DOGL walking to the nice thrift store and looking at pretty clothes and making those buttons I showed you. It was fun and I did not get sunburned. (I did yesterday, but that was at the pig roast, and that's another story.)