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[numberoneblind]

I'm not generally a New Year's resolution person. Never have been. So the fact that I'm making personal changes at the start of the new year is purely coincidental.

I'm finishing off my PE credits with a two-unit class that requires us to log 2 hours of exercise a week. Not much at all, certainly, but more than I generally do. For a long time I had a trend of working out regularly during the summer and stopping during the school year because I was busy (in high school) or because I was busy AND self-conscious (college). Going to the YMCA back home with the soccer moms and old men was always a lot less menacing than the gym at college, where it is full of athletes and I feel like The Blob. But I live in Kalamazoo now, and the college gym is free, so this morning after my 8:30 I steeled myself and went. I almost had a panic attack trying to get in the door, but it was fine once I got there. So yeah. Going to keep doing that Tues/Thurs during my in-between-classes gap (one gets out at 10:20, one starts at 1:15), and maybe traipsing down over the weekend as well.

Hopefully one of these times there will either be someone who can show me how to use the weights there who doesn't look like a total cockbag, or no one there so that I can figure it out without feeling dumb. I got spoiled by the Y's weightlifting-for-dummies Nautilus circuit thing.

Also working out kind of makes you want to eat better by default. Something about deliberately burning off calories makes deliberately ingesting them right after feel ridiculous... so I think I'm going to Meijer after my afternoon class and buying some healthier stuff at least to pack for lunch. Also I don't really have anything packable for lunch anyway. Today I have a squashed peanut butter sandwich and some elderly clementines. Bleh.

So I'm doing that, and taking a creative writing class to try to break my brain of this whole either-ignoring-or-repressing-emotions thing, and yeah. I guess the new year is a convenient start point, but I think after the last 3-4 months and how last quarter ended I would probably be trying to do this anyway.

Comments

[daggerwounds.livejournal.com]

Good luck on all your new stuff! I hope it works out great for you. Also, so jealous that working out makes you want to eat better. I just get ridiculously hungry at random times of day.

[hobo-al.livejournal.com]

You know, I think 2008 was shitty enough that resolutions don't feel like such a bad thing. I always thought resolutions were bullshit and if I made them I never kept them.
I find myself making resolutions every day since the new year, and hey, it's an excuse to kick my own ass into gear, right?
DO IT!

[r-macduff.livejournal.com]

I liked going to the K gym in the afternoon or even close to evening, there were always a lot less people and the jocks were usually not there. As intimidating as they look, a lot of them can actually be very nice, so if you feel like bucking up your courage you might be pleasantly surprised. I swear I've overheard K jocks, several times, saying that they'd like to help people learn to use the weights rather than see them get hurt. Or ask the person at the desk, who is usually pretty perky and helpful, or another woman working out. You're very charming, I'm sure they'll like you well enough to help you out.