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[numberoneblind]

i am seriously thinking i should just drop out. costing way too much money to be this big of a fuckup and it's not like i'd be missed. i would say "transfer" -- not like i'm going to not go to college at all -- but it's too late to apply to places now so for all intents and purposes it'd be dropping out. and who'd want me anyway?

there is something fucking wrong with me. something about me does not function properly as a part of this world. i don't even know anymore. i just feel so fucking useless and hopeless and worthless and stupid and... there's just no point. what's the point of my going to school, really? it's not going to teach me how to be less of a worthless forgetful moron and it's not going to teach me how to socialise like a normal human being.

i am ready to give up.

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Re: Honey...

[numberoneblind.livejournal.com]

yeah, it is the busy-ness -- which means not sleeping, which means being tired and even MORE useless. just frustrated. and I hoped I'd make friends being more involved in this show, but instead I'm just losing sleep and time.

but thank you, hon. *hugs*