back from vacation, panic setting in

[numberoneblind]

oh fuck. ohfuckohfuckohfuck.

i have completely made a goddamn mess of my life.

i know i know i'm young and i can fix it... but i seriously don't even know where to begin.

fuck.

fuck.

all I've done for the last few days is panic, basically. i'm so freaked out by the task at hand that i can't get anything done, because i'm so paralyzed by depression and anger at myself that i'm in this position.

fuuuuuuuck.

i don't know how to get myself out of this.

and i am finally out of money.

and fuck.


and all i can do is whine about it, which i'm sure is making people even more sick of me than they already were.

Comments

[outlawferret.livejournal.com]

ok calm down. what is happening?

[numberoneblind.livejournal.com]

Now that I'm back from traveling I have to kick the job-hunt into high gear and my resume sucks and it's really really hard/feels impossible.

[windarianbird.livejournal.com]

What's going on, love?

[numberoneblind.livejournal.com]

I replied to Charna above... just freaking out about the unemployed thing and the no future thing and so on.